Shifting gears

As I’m writing this post, I will admit I have tears running my eyes, my time up here has been extremely hard, it has been lonely, disappointing and hard, I am doing a job that I don’t fully feel capable of doing, and I have been put as 2IC which means second in command, at my input has not been taken seriously or listened to, completely falling on deaf ears, I am really struggling to be honest.

My coworker from back in Nova Scotia that was also up here. We finally met up today. She was off in another area and when she saw me, she gave me the biggest hug in the world.  We went for a walk, then lunch and she poured her troubles out on me and then I was able to pour mine out on her. She’s really struggled being up here as well and it just felt so good to finally be able to talk to somebody that I am comfortable with, and have been friends with at work for almost 2 years, I told her about everything and she was able to give me a few tips of how to get through the next two weeks work wise, it helped a lot because there’s so many things I can’t talk about, but I can’t with her because she said it too.

So I have decided that I’m going to shift gears. I’m going to get up every morning and go to work. I’m gonna put my hours in. I’m gonna deal with every situation that comes up but then when it’s time to clock out whatever time that may be, I am going to take myself on an adventure.

Whether it be a walk, whether it be a swim, I discovered there’s a pool, I’ve also discovered there’s a rock climbing wall, one of my friends in Ontario has a military friend who is here in Yellowknife, and so my friend in Ontario has introduced me and this girl and we are going to hang out some, we hung out last night, she was pretty awesome so I was very grateful for that.  We are going to have adventures together throughout the next two weeks.

I have booked some tours and I won’t tell you about them until they happen but they’re pretty cool. I’m really looking forward to them.

This is definitely the hardest deployment I’ve ever been on, the stress and frustration level is very high, however I’m not going to let that get me down. I am determined to make the best of this situation. I’m going to experience experiences that I may never get to again, I am going to have fun. I’m going to explore and I’m going to just live my life to the fullest and whatever spare moment, I can in a day.

I won’t be writing about work while I’m here, there is nothing that I can write about so I am going to write about my personal time my adventures, my explorations, my silly moments or embarrassing moments. I’m gonna write those down because those are the things that I want to look back on it remember of my time here.

I really appreciate you reading this. Thank you for letting me pour my heart out. My mom always told me you could do anything for a short amount of time.